For the past week Raelin has about an average 4-8 seizures a day. Very scary for us. For those who don't know, when Raelin has a seizure or what I call an episode, she tends to hold her breath (hints the oxygen) and will turn blue/purple at times. Eric and I are not sure on what more we can do for her. All her doctors are saying that we are doing the right things here at home. But part of me still thinks there is more we could do. It breaks my heart for our sweet little girl go through this. She loses all contact with us and is like a "zombie". Then when she does come back she is very confused and gets upset. She doesn't want to be touched or bothered. Then she will fall asleep. Doctors say these are normal for epileptic people. But again it kills Eric and I. Please keep our sweet girl in your prayers and that we will get an answer to why this is. And that she will get the correct dosage to ease this pain.
Tessa is confused and very bothered when she witnesses these episodes with her sister. And as parents, this adds another pain for her.
i just keep telling myself that God blessed us with our sweet child for a reason and that this will all pass. It's just getting there that is the struggle.
-Lord, at the moment nothing seems to be able to help the loss I feel.
My heart is broken and my spirit mourns.
All I know is that Your grace is sufficient.
This day, this hour
Moment by moment
I choose to lean on You,
For when I am at my weakest Your strength is strongest.
I pour out my grief to You
And praise You that on one glorious day
When all suffering is extinguished and love has conquered
We shall walk together again.
(a modern prayer for strength from www.lords-prayer-words.com)
